hmm.. -talks about me having no job two years ago-

yup, I wrote this one two years ago, stranded somewhere I don't know, having no money and nothing to do but joining free stuffs and hoping to make a break, just hoping, cos it turned out that I didn't actually do anything.. damn..

well I got a job now, not that it's the best job ever but you know, this is not forever, and there will be time for me to fly, I'm curious to know what will take me to the peak of my life..

I hope i'm not being delusional..

anyways i dedicate this one for pipim, one of my dearest friends, as i know that he's repeating the same thing i was.. doing.. undergoing.. during this 'let down' period,

and of course bagor, another dearest friend i mentioned at the beginning of this thing, I hope you guys find your own entrance to the big picture, every dog has its day, and we all, god knows, waiting for that very day..

the day of elevation





hmm...

sayang bagor ga ikutan frenster, ga bisa show off kalo g ikut seminar ttng pembuatan pelem dokumenter, ya sbenernya ga bisa dibanggaain jg, itu lebih kaya acara formal dimana ibu2 ga jelas, yg based on the kindness of God bisa kerja di tipi, nanyain hal2 aneh ga mutu yg ga perlu dijawab juga, hehe sok bgt ya g?

pada akhirnya semua mengarah pada kemarahan g yg ngga dapet2 kerja..

tapi g heran jg, pertanyaan lumrah neh, pernah ga si lo, mikir mau apa ato apa yg mau lo kerjain setelah lo lulus?

hmm..

you've had always had those free time, but of course you had to take the wrong turn and spent the rest of the journey whining, complaining why didn't you take the other road!!

kaya bikin pelem dokumenter ma bagor..

one hell of ego to break down, meski tu pelem ga bakal ada penomenalnya or semacamnya, but that mostly the reason why i'm regreting it, not doing the thing that despite the fact i'm sucked at, but have always wanted to do (dan meski ga tau caranya juga)

pertanyaan yg sering g dapet (n paling susah jawab) stlh lulus adalah 'what kind of job you're interested at'.

i hate that question..

but seriously, how i wanna get involved with the media, being a reporter, conducting research and revealing crimes to the people, forcing the authorities to react, and do the right thing for your country.

naIVEly said without really see that you could always do such thing as an ordinary citizen..

tau deh..

basically, lulus was not the best part of life yet, not if you have no idea what to do afterwards..

piece of advise, get a job B4 you graduate or at least get a direction to where you're about to go.

if you really wanna be a war photographer, get a gear and join every photographic lesson you can get this instance, dont let the blade of time cut you in half..

and if you fail, hehe yg biasanya bakal gagal, remember; Tuhan itu maha kuasa, nggak ada yg bilang dia adil, dia maha kuasa.

basically (ini kedua kalinya g pake kata ini) Its normal to be encouraged setelah lo ikut seminar yg di gawangin ma orang sukses dibidang itu, mimpi jadi dokumenter kenamaan di negeri sendiri n eventually keracunan arsenik pas mau pergi ke luar negri buat beasiswa S2 jurnalistik.

and if you fail.. its absolute to fail once or twice atau setidaknya pas lo bkin goal yg terlaLU muluk, goal ga jelas kaya menang FFII n semacamnya n bukan for the sake of documentary bla bla bla

hehe, ngomong apa si g..

you just have to start another one and see if this one dont faIL..

idealis bgt ye?

tau deh

hmm..




banzai buat pipim one of my dearest friend (yg ternyata azas patimura benar2 diterapkannya) pacaran dulu sono, enjoy, udah.. lupain si siapa aja yang lo kejar kemaren, the show must go on right? n you deserve a better show, hopefully this one suits you right


BANZAAAAIIIII (>*<)!